Veiled with clouds stars stood lonely Staring at me and I stared them too With deserted eyes and lost conscience My heart kept getting heavier Of the debt I never repaid Tears that do not rolled down Rather dried on my face Ashamed for felonies I longed for death to embrace me for their is no forgiveness To my dready soul Angel carried me in her wings To the coffin drapped with lilies Buried in the earthly essence On the shores of serene sea Washing off the false contemplations That sprouted on my palms Stained with blood of agony And my eternally closed eyes whriled around universe That forgives me, forgives all my crimes bringing me to the greatest Attribute of life Humanity nestled in my arms Soul rejoiced with mercy I received in abode.
I always wanted to get closer to you just to let my wound heal under your glossy sunshine. But little did I knew to hold sunshine in my tender palms I have to wander among insecurities; behold my worst fears with aftertaste of acrid heartbreak on my lips; I have to shield myself with the thorns that grow among the wildflowers and let my skin breathe through suffocating nights. Only after this there peep a slight ray of sun from the horizon blushing my curious smile and scars with soothes of reassurance. Fear has calmness that blooms in the most uncertain blend of art and imperfections disclosing the secret of this gracious land that carries a ecstacy to survive and ambition to never give up. After all you made me believe every shade has enormous strength to paint trails to infinity.This is how I learned to caress the void in me assuming to be a pulchritudinous flower with aromatic petals glancing straight towards you every morning.
There are different species of plants in my garden but not all of them let flowers bloom. Some had grown taller than my dad rest have stunted upto my knees. Sturdy,stiff or creepy there are lots of variations.Looking at them I often wonder the universe has only single source of strength that maintains growth of entire creatures on this planet; then why growth differs from one plant to other? Yesterday I was just introspecting gazing at the maple tree and I got the answer Even though the energy is same; capacity to consume is different. The sun is just one flourishing its rays on the Earth every creature living here cannot use it in same amount. There potential to absorb,generate,destroy and decompose is different. These provide them varied anatomy and this where beauty dwells,in diversity isn’t it? We often trouble ourselves saying if he/she could easily cope with this distress why can’t I? This interrogation is profound because yes inevitably we all are humans with equal organs and alike senses. But music everyone feels it differently. For swhen we reflect back to ourselves more consciously this question becomes irrelevant because even though our physical appearance is same our inner strength has huge difference,our mind composition and approach of every individual varies. For instance when a group of people listen to the sameome the silent music could be a medium of peace,for some it may symbolise departure or for some it could be a secret romanticism with beloved. What I basically mean is everyone is different in one way of other; respecting this difference makes us stronger and unique. Let your growth not be your growth alone but a fount of learning for millions. EVOLUTION IS PROCESS AND PROCESS IS THE ESSENCE OF BEAUTY.
Let me walk through the lilies of your heart where you have dissemble all your lesions and pain.
Let me just pluck out all those blue flowers of your dahlia and adore my wall with cologne of your melancholic verses.
Let me merge my lipid fingers with the graveyard corners of yours so that I could sow a seed of belief of being alive again.
Let me hold you closest to my arms; grab giltters of necklace and rewrite the incomplete stories inscripting stars in your eyes.
Let me strech all the haikus I wrote for you last night into the sumptuous Limericks so that you could feel my rhymes of faith when the next morning you walk all alone.
Heavy rains of misunderstandings put you apart from each other. And you both cried. Somedays you sobbed under the shower; some nights your trepidation encumbered the pillow with tears.
Days and months passed and slowly you understood those cold nights of misunderstandings were never enough to replace your warm cuddle of selflessness. Don’t regret, don’t wait for her to come to you, she might be afraid of this world,she is shy. Reach to her as soon as you can. Embrace her, don’t let the passage of time take away a precious part of you away from you like those beautiful dreams that the dreadful nights has stolen from you leaving a heavy kiss of insecurities on your lips..you are tasting this every moment, every second this is sucking you. She loves you and feel blessed to have her in your life because not everyone get showers of eternal care on their arms. Look around Some are dying every moment with the jerks of explosive saudade.
It’s not about Apologizes, neither it is about self respect. It is about the petrichor of realisations that furious downpour of departure has left in your chaotic soul. Don’t force her to share miseries with you if she don’t want to do so. Let her grieve but insure her to feel that you are there where she needs you.
We all are fighting, suffering hard with grisly hallucination but the difference lies in the way we let others perceive us. The best way to heal yourself is to let your soul be adobe of solace for others. Nothing could be more prestigious than letting your tear carve someone’s smile. Let the string of your metaphors be a rhyme in someone’s poetry.
Dormant Daisy 